GUT reactions - and itching

During my divorced life and dating, I have had the oddest experience - ITCHING on my neck if I am uncomfortable in the relationship.  While it has been slightly different with each relationship, it HAS come out and drives me CRAZY! 

So, the very first time, I was 'trying' to date and be into my now-friend and I could NOT for the life of me figure out why I was itching or when - until he joked that I was allergic to him!  Then it dawned on me that I was itching when I was around him, clearly uncomfortable!  He finally called it like it was - I was not that into him - and I did not itch from that day forward!  WOW!   Talk about a gut reaction! 

So, I have paid attention to the itching ever since!  It has been fail-proof so far...until now!  I did not itch while dating this most recent fella, and felt quite comfortable, relaxed, and was listening to my body and gut...or for me, my neck rather!  :)

This time, however, I have been itching SINCE the breakup, since the relationship has resolved, so I do not know what to do, I spoke with him to get closure and that didn't help.  I am being authentic and true to myself...which tends to be the resolution and balancing of the Throat Chakra...to stop the itching.  I do NOT know what is going on this time!  New territory that is for sure. 

I have many opinions when I ask others, trying to help figure out what is going on for me, what I am not being true about, authentic, or ME about!  UGH!   I am open to hearing theories and in the meantime I am using emu oils, anti-itch creams, meditation and other techniques to minimize the itch that is making me crazy!

More Change...and growth!

Well, life has thrown more curve balls my way and change brings growth, right?
I am no longer dating the special man in my life, it seems too much opposite was difficult and fear-inducing for him - and he ran.  He didn't handle things in the greatest or most respectful manner so that adds to the difficulty, but as someone told me I would realize someday...he did the best he could in the moment, and that wasn't good enough for me...So one more door shuts, and we will see about other doors and windows later on. 

This has been difficult to swallow for sure - I had finally trusted again, fell in love again, so it is painful.  I am recovering and focusing on me again and getting back to normal. 
I have learned and am grateful for many things from the experience, even through the pain.

1. Perhaps it was good for me simply TO trust and love again.
2. My kids, while they met him and that is difficult, they also got to see, as did I, how someone CAN be with them, and an experience we all got to have, while brief.
3. I was relaxed finally in dating, enjoying the moments...I was doing GREAT!
4. I tightened my standards yet again and keep getting closer and closer to a good match for me. 

Good luck to all of you in your relationships and learning experiences, I am moving on and back to me!

Ah-ha moments

We all have them, right?  A big moment that we get to say AH-HA, I get it!  Realizing some big piece of ourselves, or in others, or both, or anything in between!

I just got the pleasure of an ah-ha moment - even if it was difficult!  As we maneuver and learn in relationships and are figuring out how each other resonates, behaves, feels, thinks, all of those things - we will stumble upon something that does not work for both parties.  It often can be where we feel 'opposite' from each other - when the opposite things are where we may be weak by nature and actually attract that person to us for that reason, but it is also difficult to deal with simply because it is opposite of how we naturally operate!  Crazy world we live in!  So we get the AH-HA moment to push us outside our box and guess what?  GROW!  We get to grow from ah-ha moments!  YEAH!

So for me, I learned a lot about myself yesterday and today, as well as the other person - and I grew...at least a little.  ; ) And I will continue to grow and flourish and blossom...and as an extrovert, I can learn a GREAT deal from this introvert who needs and seeks solitude...the area I most need to grow for my being and soul to flourish.  Exciting times!  : ) 

WOW!

Someone once told me in relationships to wait....for the WOW factor....and to not settle for less.  I have been patiently waiting, figuring things out on me, living my life with more intention and purpose, all of those things.  WOW has hit me square in the eyes and when I least expected it!

I have been thoroughly enjoying dating this special man for a while now and found myself saying WOW an awful lot.  Then it dawned on me - WOW - this is really happening!  Then I had to examine the other, more logical aspects too...

This is a good man, with good character and good values - one of the more recent qualities that I have been waiting for, to be more congruent and compatible with my own life (including two little ones!).  I didn't feel at all like I was settling for a Mr. Ok!  This has REAL possibility here!  WOW!  Ohhhh, there it goes again, like an uncontrollable spasm, WOW!  So far, we are finding that we are quite compatible in many ways - active, healthy, family values, things desired in life, and lifestyle.  As well, we ar finding complementary things too - my organizational skills and positivity, his ability to slow down and relax, being in nature,  helping bring me down to earth now and then, and both of us commenting on how it helps us each BE a better person - always part of any positive WOW relationship, right?  This is WOW...oops, there it is again...anyone have more words? 

How about the "L" word?  Yep, I'm in LOVE, and so is he - how convenient is that? >>>>> and as my kids would say "Mommy" and "----" kissing in a tree...K.I.S.S.I.N.G....
you know those words!  : )

Enjoy your day, your life, your relationships
And make them the best that you can each and every day!

Dancing, Daring, Delightful Diva!

Been thinkin'

Sometimes when we receive information from another, it may not be what we would like to hear, but we have to figure out how to accept and move on.  I realized yesterday evening that many things come into play as we process information.  We have to separate out some factors involved:

Our own history and baggage from relationships comes into play - the way others behaved, reacted, experiences you had, insecurities you had....all of which are in the past, but are spilling into today's present and tomorrows' future - if we let it.

Another factor that plays into account is simply taking things personal - and that logically this has nothing directly to do with us at all...and we have to let it go, let it rest, let it be...

We have to separate the person from the pattern, what we want from what we may have, our expectations from reality, and our own wants and desires from the situation at hand too...all of that plays into account. We need to try to see the bigger picture as we move and groove into a relationship, the good over the challenges and learn to work with each other to have a successful foundation.

Little things...

I have learned many things along the way - but it really is the little things that matter most. So we have to learn to SEE the little things right?  I often get teased about how enthusiastic I am about all kinds of things, and I would ask you this - isn't that the more enjoyable way to be? 

If we notice and are grateful, happy, ecstatic about most anything, my life is filled with joy, appreciation, and more and more of that builds up...so why not purposefully look for and appreciate those things? 

So, let's see an example of someone calling in the evening for a few minutes. There are a couple of reactions:

1. One person could be irritated or bothered that they only had a few minutes for them, or that it was late in the day, and that they are the leftovers or afterthoughts to the person who called. OR...
2. One could be appreciative that the person calling found even a few minutes to call and visit even though they are busy, exhausted, tired, stressed - YOU were important enough to find 10 minutes to call. They think of you in the morning through the evening and wanted to hear your voice before bed.  SWEET!

So I ask - which person do you want to be? 
Change your perspective, change your thoughts, and change your life
- and it becomes far more enjoyable!

Been a while!...

Well, it has been a while, but LIFE has happened and I have been going with the flow, dodging curve balls and all sorts of things, getting my life into a whole new perspective! 

I have learned a few things in my time away as it has been a while since I have dated, or posted about it:

1. Having Mr. Ok-Right-Now around does NOT leave room for anyone else to land in your life.
2. Even my ex-husband can meet someone willing to spend the rest of their life with him...OY!
3. Life is all about CHANGE and that perhaps if we aren't willing to make those changes, God, the universe, or whatever you believe in, will make them for us.
4. Life is also about taking chances and risks and we should come sliding into the grave having used up everything, having had a blast along the way!
5. I'd rather have a pile of 'oh wells' than 'what ifs' along the way

So all of this has led to you ask??????
I said YES to a date and am having a GREAT time!  : )